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Good Friday.

A year ago, I had a young happy heart that never experienced great life trials. Suddenly, things changed. A sudden life tragedy came, I failed myself. I was on the verge of giving up. I always end up crying myself to sleep. I never thought those things would happen to me. I don’t know what to do. I was so lost. I doubted myself. I questioned myself a million times but I never questioned God. He’s the one who helped me to go through those trials.

No one knows how hard it was, how painful it was. All I know is that everyone judged me to the core. Everyone gave me a scrutinizing look and yes, they made it hard for me. All along, I know they will never forget that incident. Not to mention, how the news spread so fast. Other people who weren’t there would judge me based on the story that they’ve just overheard making it a wrong version. With that, I suffered with inferiority complex. 

Yes, that was a single mistake that almost ended my world. I kept on praying. I was given another chance, a chance that no one expected. Indeed, prayer is the most powerful chant. I never left God in times of the trials that He gave to me for I know he’s always with me to give strength that I needed. He is my primary source of strength.

Almost a year has passed; I can say that I’m stronger with God’s love. I keep on learning. With those thorns that left a scar in my heart will always remind me how great God’s love is for me. I can say to myself that I was able to get through with the hardships because I have a great God. No thorns can make my heart stop from beating for my love to the Almighty one.

Never lose faith. Be strong and never put blame to others and especially to God. One can get over any trials in life. Just remember that the pain that Jesus felt is much more than what we are suffering today. With that, bow your head and pray. He’ll help you ease the pain.

I’m now living my life with a strength well built from God’s love by my strong faith to Him. Travel the road with Him because He’s the ultimate guide.

Be strong. Pray. Do not be afraid.

Thank You Jesus. I love You. 

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PHOTO DIARY: LEE MIN HO IN MANILA 11.16.12

I already blogged about my invite for Lee Min Ho’s fan meet in Araneta here. November 16 came. 

The long queue. 

The opening number in the tune of 2NE1’s FIRE. Philippine All Stars! 

The stage!

Oh! I can still remember everything. His sweet smile, his kind gestures, the wild crowd, my red alert incident and everything. Mind you, my friends and I are on different areas so I experienced the mosh pit alone. Oh and it was my first time! I survived it merely because of Lee Min Ho’s smile and not to mention how he enjoyed on his own fan meet. The jam packed Araneta Coliseum video here. Till next time, Lee Min Ho! 

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VIDEO: LEE MIN HO IN MANILA

Sorry, but these are just two videos. I’m lazy to upload the videos that I’ve took last November 16 during Lee Min Ho’s fan meet in Manila. How I wish I got a better cam to record everything. It’s okay though, because everything is well recorded in my heart and mind. Just putting these on my blog so I can easily recall everything that happened last November 16, 2012. 

The jam packed Big Dome. Everyone was so excited. What a dream come true to see him in person after waiting for 3 years! Oh yes, I survived the mosh pit. haha! First time ever to experience standing for almost 2 hours with a crazy crowd. 

Denise, my friend, won in the act that scene contest. So she had the chance to be on the same stage with Lee Min Ho. So proud of her. Screamed on top of my lungs, “GO DENISE” which resulted to the weird stares of the people beside me. haha!

Lee Min Ho enjoyed watching the top 5 entries. You can really see how sincere this man is. I swear he’s more than a pretty face!

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WORK IN PROGRESS

November started as a sweet month for me. I was able to cross out my no.1 priority in my bucket list. It’s not just a mere accomplishment; it means my life, my passion.

November 2 is my sixth month and you know what that means? Regular status baby! It feels surreal signing that regularization contract. Beyond thankful! Ehem. Increase in salary. Hooray! nyahaha

Signed the contract using my GD ballpen. Of course!:-) The one of a kind GD! Hello to a VIP in me. Laine knows the big part of Big Bang  especially GD in my so called tragic phase of my life. I’m not kidding. You MAY laugh. K. 

My duty paraphernalia. That yellow stethoscope that has been the apple of the eye of a resident doctor. nyahaha. As she said, “alam na kapag may naka yellow na steth, duty si Fe.” haha

It was not an easy one, it was a tragedy turned into a mellow dramatic and now slowly developing to a fairy tale (I believe so).  All I know is that, I am able to pass through the my-world-broke-into-pieces phase. I am able to accept my weaknesses and even my stupidity. Oh yes! Believe me; I’ve never felt that I’m great. People are just fond of focusing on my so called credentials that will be equated to high expectations.  I just hate that. Such a burden. YOU are much greater than me. I humbly can say that I’m somewhat in the middle. Someone is way better than me, but I’m better compared to somebody. Makes sense? Hope so. I know I’m not perfect. Are you perfect? No one is, but we are all in the process of reaching perfection in our own ways. I always humbly say I’m blessed with all the opportunities, the second chances and for my lovely support system.

The empty hallway in front of Nursing Service Department at 4AM. 

When I was starting, I am such a cry baby. I sleep with tears in my eyes for I always feel incompetent. I believe it was almost a month or more than . That there is still lacking, that I’m such a loser. Oh yes, I was ashamed of myself. Cried a river, and I’m serious. This weakling side of me ate me. I just hate the fact that people are talking behind my back. Yeah, people are just fond of that. Who is to blame? As if someone can understand what I’ve been ranting about.

Some snaps with my seniors. ☺

I reached the point of doubting myself in every little thing that I’ll do. I even asked my dad if people would hate me for being somewhat naïve. I can still remember everything he said and those left a mark in my heart. My Dad told me that I should not lose my faith in what I do. He said I’m not just used to being disliked, so I was so disturbed. Since I was a little, I’ve received a lot of love. I’ve never experienced hatred and such criticisms. My mom is such a crybaby too. So I just cry in my way to dreamland for her not to see. I’m so sorry for being such a kid. Not everyone will like me and I should prove to them that I’m worthy of everyone’s trust and company. It already happened, what can I do? So I stopped over thinking and moved on. I focused on what I do rather than what others think of me.

I’ve realized that my greatest competitor in my life is MYSELF. If I doubt myself, how would people believe in me? If I hate myself, how would others love me? If I’ll be weak, who’ll be strong for me? I learned and became somewhat stronger because of my past.

Prayer is my most powerful chant. I’m so thankful for my heard prayers. In prayer, I become stronger. My favorite bible verse: HEBREW 13:6 The Lord is my helper, I will not be afraid. What can man do to me?

I know everything is now in the past but I will never forget those. I’m on the work in progress phase. I’m working to be better, to be stronger and to be able to make a great mark in this world. So vague, not so. It’s all in my bucket list.

Why so serious? haha. Yeah, as what G Dragon said in his song, get your CrayOn. . Smile even if things get hard, you’ll realize that things will be much easier if you’ll just smile.  We can’t get everything we like in a snap.

Every day is a learning day! I’m so thankful for my lovely support system. Thank you Lord! Thank you for all the patients’ commendations and token of appreciations! :-)

Someday, one day I believe I’ll reach my dream destination with my lovely shoes of memories and lessons in life. It’s all about the travel not the destination.

My first official shoes as a staff nurse. I am so in love with shoessss. I already bought 4 pairs of different styles. 

Yes, I’m blessed and you are too, because He loves us.


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Right and Wrong [MY BIGBANG ALIVE GALAXY TOUR EXPERIENCE]

I finally have time to blog about my Big Bang Alive Galaxy Tour experience. 

October 24, 2012 is the scheduled date of Big Bang’s concert in Manila. It was a long day for me. I woke up so early because of a seminar then went straight to MOA after. It was such a beautiful night but with some glitches. SOME? yah, let me use the word SOME. 

I really don’t know how to start this post. haha! Flight of ideas. K. FOCUS.

After the concert, I keep on singing one of their songs What is Right. [which is not even included in the concert]. I don’t know why this song hitted me when I was thinking of a blog title on my way home last October 24. 

Let me start my sharing. Tell me what is right and what is wrong. This post will be about my own comments, suggestions, rants, craziness and everything in between. I wasn’t able to take a lot of pictures because I really want to enjoy each single moment. That moment that you brought two phones but you don’t know if you’ll take a picture or not. haha. Major fail. 

  •  I went there with my friend, Rhej. You know it’s a good thing to have a companion in concerts. Someone you can go crazy with. This is a right thing! nyahaha
  • Upon arriving in Mall of Asia, we saw a Korean selling some Big Bang items. An impulsive buyer in me, I bought a GD headband. Tell me, is this right?

  • Rhej and I kept on strolling around MOA. We went to the booths such as the Jeju Air. Got my free GD ballpen. A treasure! Rhej, picked the TOP ballpen. We didn’t go to the Samsung Galaxy booth because of the long queue. The lazy me was not able to have the Big Bang blue glowing bracelet (whatever they call it. haha)  from Samsung. In concerts like this, booths from the sponsors are giving away cool freebies. So one must try visiting those. It would also be fun if you’re with a large group of friends. Don’t let your laziness eat you. 
  • The official merchandise booth is heaven full of Big Bang goodies but the prices are hell like! Everything was expensive! I planned to buy the official yellow crown light stick but I didn’t buy one because it’s reaaaaaallllly expensive. I should have preordered way way back. So I ended up buying a cheaper one.

  • Energy is a must. We ate at Bonchon before the concert. Korean all the way.
  • Claimed my Forever G dragon banner, finger lasers and other paraphernalia for the missions. 
  • Big Bang was the first Korean group to perform in Mall of Asia Arena. History baby!
  • The long queue was a nightmare! They said that gates will be opened by 6PM but they started to let people in by 7PM I think. Mind you, the line was turtle moving.

  • The concert started at 8PM. 8PM SHARP! Koreans are really on time. The sad thing was a lot of people are still waiting outside when they started.
  • I was able to get in by 8:10 PM! I was not able to watch the opening of the concert. It really hurts because Tonight is one of my favorite songs from Big Bang.

The performance that I missed! GRRR. 

  • The MOA people and the organizers is a major boo! They underestimated the crowd. They were not able to plan well. It was beyond disappointing.
  • Upon entering the arena, everyone was so crazy running to their areas because we can hear BIG BANG singing.
  • It was a good thing that we were able to be near front of our section. We were so crazy dancing, singing our hearts out and screaming on top of our lungs.
  • GD is so handsome but I can feel that he is not happy that night. Something unsual. Tell me what is wrong GD! You don’t like the Filipino VIPs? Am I so sensitive? He got no tweets when he was here unlike when he was on the other countries. Oh yeah, what a lame basis of mine. Haha!
  • TOP is so much loved in here. I didn’t expect that. I was expecting GD would have a lot of fans here. A simple YEAH from TOP would get a crazzy loud scream from the crowd. He was even the last one to leave the stage. He was so energetic and Bingu TOP was in action that night.
  • Seungri is an ultimate bias wrecker. He looks so handsome in person. This maknae surely knows how to spot a beauty in the crowd. The lucky girl who got a jacket form Seungri was so lucky!! That jacket costs 10 thousand plus.

The lucky girl. Credits to the owner of the pic. 

  • Yung sa mga nakasalo ng jacket ni GD buwis buhay ang peg. Haha No one wants to give up GD’s jacket.
  • Daesung is such a smiling angel. I’m quite sad because he didn’t fly around the arena during the Wings performance. Waley WINGS! Anu ba yun? Hayy.
  • Taeyang? Hmm. He performed so well. I just don’t like the part when he kicked Seungri’s panda and when he threw away the crayon stuff toy from a fan handed to him by Seungri. I just feel that he’s somehwat arrogant in that sense or is he still mad at Seungri with regards to the scandal?
  • MOA arena’s sound system sucks! I can’t hear them well especially during the talk parts. Even though I can’t understand everything they’ve said because of the poor sound system, I just screamed. Haha Crazy! You try to watch the encore video of Big Bang shot by GD and Seungri, it’s very evident there how the sound system sucks. Sorry, but a lot said that Araneta is much better. They said that they were not able to experience that crazy line during the Super Show of Super Junior here.

  •  I am looking forward to the promise of Seungri that they’ll comeback here soon. Saving money 101 starts now. haha
  • It feels surreal to sing along with them. I feel so emotional while singing Lies and Haru Haru. Lies is my ultimate favorite. I love all Big Bang’s songs! Everything was so LIVE!
  • GD performed snippets of his songs Crayon and One of a Kind. I’m such a happy GD stan. Haha! But I still feel that something is bothering him that night! Did he not feel the love of Filipino VIPs for him?

Credits to the owner of the pic.

  •  Erase the negativity, I’m so happy for one GD stan because she was able to give her own made GD chibi to the one and only Kwon Ji Yong. EWAN KO NA LANG KUNG DI NIYA PA MARAMDAMANG LOVE SIYA NG PH VIPS. haha When someone gave this to him, I was screaming on top of my lungs. Ang sweeeeet. haha
  • One of the crazy things was someone threw a bra on stage. I. DON’T. GET. THIS. Disrespectful. Hello to a conservative me.
  • I love it when GD had his hair down and wore a cap. I swear he was so handsome!!!
  • Their encore performances is so daebak! I think they’ve performed 4 songs during the encore. Who can beat PH VIPS 1 minute of screaming WE WANT MORE! HAHA.
  • NO mission was done succesfully. How I wish we were able to sing a Happy Birthday to TOP. I still even shouted HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOP.
  • I was able to do my own mission, I WAS ABLE TO SHOUT ‘I LOVE YOU KWON JI YONG!’ OH YEAH! haha
  • The hardest part to accept was the time of goodbye. I ended up staring blankly on stage wishing MORE! Post concert blues. I WILL REALLY WAIT FOR THEIR COMEBACK HERE.
  • Sandara watched the concert here. She did a good job teaching BIG BANG members some Tagalog words.
  • Upon leaving our area, boxes of fans from Jeju Air was near the exit, Rhej and I got a lot of BB fans. I got 4 GD fans and 2 TOP fans. Haha!

Despite some glitches, it was really a night to remember. I’ve enjoyed every single minute of the concert. I hope the next time they’ll be back no more glitches will come.

Thank you Big Bang! Salamat! Mahal ko kayo! 

 To end this post, I want to share Big Bang’s live performance of What is Right. 

 

Gonna edit this post once I remember more. haha. The wrong thing here I was not able to remember everything so well. All I can clearly remember was, I was in the same place as Big Bang! haha Cray!

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Stoked

Today is the last day of July. I’m stoked for an awesome August. #optimistic

I pray for a great new month and I believe it will be. August is the birth month of my brother… and as well as G dragon (nyahaha very significant right?) 

July has been pretty well to me. It was a pull-out month for me. I’ve conquered some of my fears. Thank God! 

I have a goal for the month of August. I should deal with my crybaby moments. I should make my heart stronger. Just like Pixie Lott song, ♫♪Never gonna bring me down. Gonna keep on dancing till the sun comes out.♫♪ I should never let anyone or anything bring me down. 

I feel so blessed not just with material things but with the love and concern of the people around me. Speaking of, I was able to buy a lot this month.

Thank you Lord. 

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TIME

I wish I have a time machine. Can someone lend me one? haha

My cousin and I have the same watch. Thank you Ninang Jenny!:-) 

Time flies so fast. I’m turning 21 this coming Valentine’s day. It’s been almost 6 months since I passed the nursing board exam.

All I can do now is to live for today and hope for the future as quoted from Edric Chen’s blog. I will seize each day. 

I was so upset last week. Such a crybaby. I’m getting better each day. I always believe that everything happens for a reason. 

(Photo from Denise)

[February 8, Wednes-date] I was with Denise, Jieneth, and Justine in Trinoma. We just had a food trip. In a span of 6 hours, we had 3 meals. haha. Talk about gluttony. Bonchon+Happy Lemon+Yellow Cab Pizza. We had a chicken overload in Bonchon. Thanks to Justine’s treat. Happy Lemon’s Cocoa with rocksalt and cheese is <3. We had Manhattan Meatlovers at Yellow cab. We talked about random things. 

With my dearest Teng. :-) (Photo from Denise)

(Photo from Denise)

Thank you for this Teng! When I saw this, I shouted STAR! haha. 

Had a great time with lovely people. I really had fun on our Wednes-date. :-)) Till next time. 


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Study Habits

 

  This blog entry is about simple secrets, solutions and strategies to improve study habits. I actually compiled everything I’ve searched before about effective studying habits, tips from my professors and my own studying habits.

  I actually made this for my friend, Koliko, last April 25. I want to help her since she’s taking up medicine(course). I’ve also shared this to some of my friends like Sun-A Kim and Joyce Supnet.

  Now, I’m sharing this to everyone. I hope just like them, this blog entry can help you in establishing your own healthy study habits.

  1. Analyze yourself. Set your goals.

- Change bad study habits. Improve study habits. Make learning fun in your own way.

 -Write down your goals and your objectives plus on how you would achieve those.

 -Read those every night to remind you of what you are trying to achieve. This will make you more dedicated and will give you a feeling of self-fulfillment whenever you had achieved some.


2.   Manage your time. Set priorities. Do your daily schedule. Activities should be balance.

*Study before doing anything unnecessary. One should STUDY BEFORE SURFING THE NET. DISCIPLINE IS A BIG CHECK!

-In a day that you don’t have classes, spend time reading. Wake up at 4AM. (Research said that during this time retention is better.) Do “short frequent reading”. (2 hours of reading then 1 hour break. Then go back reading. Your brain needs a break.)

-Set a topic that you will read each day. You don’t need to force yourself reading an entire book each day because it will be useless because not everything will be retained.

-In a day after having classes, read the lecture that you’ve had that day. In that way, more information will be restored. This also prevents cramming during examinations. Cramming is not effective because lessons that you’ve studied will just be short-term. Reading lessons everyday after classes gives students long-term memory.

 

3. Exercise at least 30mins, 3x a week.

Rationale:

a.Physical exercise increases oxygen to your brain and reduces the risk for disorders that lead to memory loss, such as diabetes and cardiovascular disease. Exercise may also enhance the effects of helpful brain chemicals and protect brain cells. 

b.       Exercise promotes circulation at the same time gives you energy to study for long periods of time. You will be surprise on how much energy you will have if you do regular exercise. 

 

4.  Sleep well.

-Have at least 7 hours of sleep each day.

Rationale:

a.        When you’re sleep deprived, your brain can’t operate at full capacity. Creativity, problem-solving abilities, and critical thinking skills are compromised. *This is so true!!!! I’ve experienced 24-hours of no sleep because of our group work/presentation during our 2nd year days. Almost half of the class are sleepless. haha! We were pinching each other to keep ourselves awake. I really can’t absorb anything because my eyes wanted to shut. Nursing can make you realize that sleep is one of the precious things that life has to offer! :-))

b.       Research shows that sleep is necessary for memory consolidation, with the key memory-enhancing activity occurring during the deepest stages of sleep. 

 *I really love to sleep. haha! Well, who doesn’t? 


5.Eat nutritious foods.

a.It’s better to have small frequent feedings (6 small meals each day) rather than having 3 big meals.

b.       Don’t skip BREAKFAST!

c.        Eat foods rich in carbohydrates. For energy that lasts, choose complex carbohydrates such as whole-wheat bread, brown rice, oatmeal, high-fiber cereal, lentils, and whole beans.

d.       Eat foods rich in omega 3 (salmon, tuna, mackerel, sardines etc.) Rationale: More and more evidence indicates that omega-3 fatty acids are particularly beneficial for brain health. 

e.        Limit intake of saturated fat (red meat, whole milk, butter. Cheese, sour cream and ice cream) Rationale: Research shows that diets high in saturated fat increase your risk of dementia and impair concentration and memory.

f.         Eat more fruits and veggies. Rationale: Fruits and vegetables are packed with antioxidants, substances that protect your brain cells from damage

Vegies: spinach, broccoli, lettuce etc.

Fruits: mangoes, cantaloupe, etc.

g.        Drink red wine or grape juice in moderation, cranberry juice, fresh grapes, berries and peanuts.  Rationale: Keeping your alcohol consumption in check is key, since alcohol kills brain cells. But in moderation (around 1 glass a day for women; 2 for men), alcohol may actually improve memory and cognition. 

*F.Y.I: I don’t drink alcoholic beverages. I don’t even smoke! I’m a good girl you know! :-)

 

6.  Be happy.

a.        Maintain healthy relationships with people.

b.       Laughter is the best medicine. Be with happy people. They say that when a person is happy, there is better retention.

Rationale: Laughter involves multiple regions across the whole brain. .As psychologist Daniel Goleman notes in his book Emotional Intelligence, “laughter…seems to help people think more broadly and associate more freely.”

 

7. A big NO to STRESS.

Rationale: chronic stress destroys brain cells and damages the hippocampus, the region of the brain involved in the formation of new memories and the retrieval of old ones.


8. Pray.

Have faith. Prayers make wonders.

Other reminders:

        1.  Listen and focus on each lecture. Involve as may senses as you can for this helps in better retention.

 Rationale: The physical act of rewriting information can help imprint it onto your brain. Even if you’re a visual learner, read out loud what you want to remember.

         2.  On difficult concepts, try to dissect it into simpler terms that you can easily remember and understand. In this way, you can retain the information longer rather than focusing on the broad concept.

       3.  Use mnemonics for easier memorization. With regards to normal values for different tests in medical field, you can write them and place them in the wall of your room. As day goes by, you will notice that you can recall the normal values easily because you see them everyday on your wall.

  That’s it! Did this post help you? haha. Okay, you guys study well. :-)

  Ciao! 

(photos are from deviantART.com)


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